Instead of trusting the universe so that you end up where you want to, perhaps you should start meeting the universe as it is.
We have no ‘place’ in life, which is probably why everyone feels so insecure about such a thing. They are then driven to maintain a secure place or they struggle with fleeting happiness in trying to find their own place.
What is a ‘place’ in life anyway? A role, an idea, a temporary identity? That is a place in society, not a place in life. People use the words interchangeably, as if life never existed before society. Such a perspective truly damages our sanity.
Happiness does not come from society and it never will. Just as happiness does not come from a sandbox. Any happiness a child finds in a sandbox is the happiness he or she brings with them.
Lasting happiness is uncaused and synonymous with Being. Therefore the search for happiness is really the search for your Self. That happiness is happening right now, only we do not know it because we are looking elsewhere.
Your place in life, as opposed to a place in society, is none other than Existence. Do you truly know your aliveness now such that you can truly be unhappy with it? Or do you merely have your thoughts, concepts, and judgments about who you are, where you are, and what you need in order to be considered legitimate and whole?
If we mistake our societal expression for a means to happiness and identity then not only will we be forced to enact cyclical delusion but we also wont be very effective in expressing ourselves within society.
However, if you disentangle yourself from the ways in which you are attempting to derive happiness and identity from inert concepts, then you are immediately once again like the child in the sandbox. What then is there to second guess?
Instead of being scattered and divided between longing and desire and confusion, you are undivided, whole, and joyful in your game with society. There is nothing at risk, since your happiness does not hinge upon outcome or circumstance.
As you have discovered, all this mental agonizing hasn’t brought you anywhere other than a state of dis-ease and discouragement. Worry pretends to be useful but in reality offers nothing.
Reconsider your approach. A book I would highly recommend is The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.
If we mistake our societal expression for a means to happiness and identity then not only will we be forced to enact cyclical delusion but we also won’t be very effective in expressing ourselves within society.